16 years and there`s no trust, no understanding, no nothing entitled in this father and son relationship. this i`ve concluded after conversations over conversations where you will definitely find "you have to change your mindset" in the dialogue. it`s as if he thinks that he`s always right like some totally perfect wise shit. wish i had cheatcode parents like eden/steph`s.

anyway, woke up late today like i did yesterday and didn`t like the idea of wasting my time in detention class again so i thought my dad would understand if i told him that i wanted study at home instead. well, mistake from me. and instead of just saying no he went on about being responsible and brought up some irrelevant and nonsensical issues. tried to speak my mind but everything i said was replied with a "change your mindset". eventually we both got pissed. he went back to his room, i went back to sleep.

now i understand why my mom left him. yeah harsh, i know. but what the fuck. this is the only place i`ll ever get to say this. i doubt he ever blamed himself for anything at all. things like forgetting to bring his wallet can become my fault because i 'rushed' him.

the mood for self study has been killed so i`m probably going to waste the day away doing nothing constructive.
11:31:00 AM
"You may say that I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one."

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