I know it's father's day today, but I kind of miss you, mom.
I know I keep saying that it's been so long, that I've gotten used to it, but who am I kidding? Who gets used to something like that? I haven't in the past 16 years, and I know I never will. Your absence is just something I cannot ignore.

What I will never know though, is why you left and how you managed to do it. You were the only woman in the world I could expect to love me unconditionally and yet you just upped and left. Till now I still don't know what made you decide to leave us behind but I really hope that decision didn't come easy.

And though it may seem a little late now, I still want you back in my life. I'll promise to love and take care of you like you've never done for me. But from the way things look, I can tell that you won't be coming back again.

I don't have any more memories of our time spent together. The only ones that are left are the ones I wish I could forget. The day it all changed. I still remember it like it was yesterday.

I just want you to know that I still think about you. That I still wonder where you are on nights like these.
11:40:00 PM
"You may say that I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one."

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